Title : Lost Woman SongArtist : Ani DifrancoAlbum : Like I Said———————————————————————————for lucille cliftonI opened a bank accountwhen I was nine years oldI closed it when I was eighteenI gave them every penny that I’d savedand they gave my bloodand my urinea numbernow I’m sitting in this waiting roomplaying with the toysand I am here to exercisemy freedom of choiceI passed their handheld signswent through their picket linesthey gathered when they saw me comingthey shouted when they saw me crossI said why don’t you go homejust leave me aloneI’m just another woman lostyou are like fish in the waterwho don’t know that they are wetas far as I can tellthe world isn’t perfect yethis bored eyes were obsceneon his denim thighs a magazineI wish he’d never come here with mein fact I wish he’d never come near meI wish his shoulderwasn’t touching mineI am growing olderwaiting in this linesome of lifes best lessonsare learned at the worst timesunder the fierce flourescentshe offered her hand for me to holdshe offered stability and calmand I was crushing her palmthrough the pinch pull wincingmy smile unconvincingon that sterile battlefield that seesonly casualtiesnever herosmy heart hit absolute zeroLucille, your voice still sounds in memine was a relatively easy tragedynow the profile of our countrylooks a little less hard nosedbut that picket line persistedand that clinic’s since been closedthey keep pounding their fists on realityhoping it will breakbut I don’t think there’s a one of usleads a life free of mistakes
Author: nainadg
Top 10 songs for a Melancholy Night
I just don’t know what to do with myself- White Stripes, Elephant
Hey,Thats no way to say good bye- Leonard Cohen, Greatest hits
A case of you – Joni Mitchell, Blue
You Oughta know- Alanis Morrissette, Jagged Little pill
Eulogy- Tool, Aenima
Shadow Boxer- Fiona Apple, Tidal
I am a rock – Simon Garfunkel, Best of
Somewhere only we know- Keane, Hopes and Fears
Say Goodbye- DMB, Crash
Piece of my heart- Janis Joplin
Top 10 Fashion Icons
This is one of the hardest lists for me, because there are too many categories and sub categories and simply too many women with wonderful style that I could never measure up to. But here are my top 12 most stylish women of all time. Most fave on top…….
1)Sophia Loren: I saw a Hollywood movie of hers, when I was pretty young, Ten or so and she just captured my imagination. I think back then it was the accent and after I had access to the internet, I would ready anything I could on her. She seems like the ultimate hollywood glamour diva. Her style seemed earthy, sexy, curvy, and it seemed like my body shape might be similar to her instead of the other movie stars. She was never “in your face sexy” but you jus had to look at her. Also it seemed like she made imperfections sexy.
2)Bridgette Bardot: I have never seen her movies. I fell in love with her, when I saw her pic in a cosmo article about makeup. She was so sexy and she looked so messy and it looked like all she did was lie in bed and thought and did wicked things and I knew I had to steal that look.
3)Aparna Sen: I knew she was my Aunt Jayashree’s best friend and a famous movie star/ director but i didnt’ see any of her movies till I was 14 or 15 . Once I started watching her movies she was doing middle aged roles, and she was still stunning. Her look was intellectual, glamourous, dignified all at the same time. Also the fact that she is brilliant played a huge role in my admiration. She was pretty interesting when she was younger as well.
4)Jayashree Dasgupta : I don’ t have her pic to post, but she is my aunt and a famous Bengali singer. She is in the same category of glamour as Aparna sen, but I was exposed to her at a much younger age. She always seemed so mysterious to me and she looked so different from the rest of our family, dark and tall and her sarees were amazing. Also the fact that she chewed paan and had a husky voice added to the mystery. She was the first one in my family to give me her old jewelry and I would feel so grown up.
5) Sushmita Sen : Out of all the modern day bollywood film stars, she is my style icon. Her chiffon sarees are amazing and she has the diva attitude down. She was the first Indian Miss Universe and when she started doing movies she had horrible style but all that has changed now. She looks hot in any kind of outfits, coutoure, jeans, sarees, whatever.
6) Sarah Jessica Parker : I know she is probably a huge fashion influence on many people and its a cliched choice, but SJP and her outfits in SATC really opened my eyes to how you could play with your clothes and make up and really express personality. She took dressing up/down to an art form.
7) Salma Hayek: I fell for her surprisingly when I saw Fools Rush In. It was one of those forgettable romantic comedies but its cross cultural love story struck a chord with me, and how hot Salma Hayek looked in the movie. After that I always looked at the Us weekly and people to see her outfits and once again they were very old school hollywood glamour. Also the fact that she is tiny and managed to look regal in those awesome gowns gave me hope.
8)Millie Barat : she is my aunt from my mom’s side and as far as I can remember she is always dressed up. She dresses very much like a traditional Indian woman and prefers designer sarees and long chandelier earrings and fresh flowers. She also is the center of attention at any party or gathering
9) Madonna : She is probably an universal style icon. I loved all her looks pre Music. The leather, the corset and the lace and tulle all mixed in with her heavy make up and red lips were so alluring. Even though she was a pop star , her fasion was always rock!
10)Sharmila Tagore/Renee Zellwegger : I had them both tie, cuz even though I am not directly influenced by their styles, I have always admired Renee’s dresses and Sharmila’s old hairdos and the exaggerated Kohl line, something I have ripped off heavily.
Honorable Mention: Catherine Zeta Jones
Anyone who can be 9 mos pregnant and look hot, is a style icon in my book.Her look in Chicago was bad ass and even in boring commercial her long dark hair and perfect makeup and little suits totally scream Movie Star.
The ultimate vacay
Even though its friday, its self hate day. Can’t stand me, or anything around me. Maybe I’m maniac depressive.
Need vacation!Not from work, from life.
I wonder how it would be if we could take mini vacays from our life, stop existing for a little while? And then when we felt good and ready to return back to existence, we could stop being dead. Death…not the end ….just a vacation.
I have issues!
In other news, have decided that since Johnny Depp is uttainable, I will proceed to have Jack White’s children.
And another winner….
Unless it turns out that this would need to be a Layla free weekend, I think J and I are committed to camping. We don’t the people very well, but I just want to get away from everything, be a tourist, take silly pics of friends and puppy and mountains, eat good food and come home drama free!
Plenty of drama on ANTM last night though, with a runway walk off and live commercial. Naima won! Yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay! I would have been pretty happy if Kahlen had won too, but Naima just seemed really special, not boring and as L says “didn’t say anything too annoying”. I hope she has a great career.
Tyra has managed to keep me for one more season! Go Miss Tyra. I think Janice needs her own reality show. I know she will be on next season’s Surreal life, but I think they should just give her a cooler/bitchier version of ANTM. Sigh….wishful thinking.
Hopefully apprentice finale will be decent. Haven’t really watched in a couple ofweeks. So don’t really care, who gets hired.
….And we have a winner!!!!
So I actually won something today! Going to the stupid networking thing definitely paid off! I won two tickets to the Durham Bulls game next Tuesday. Do I like baseball? No, but its free and its summer and I think it will be fun to go with J and get hotdogs and beer! A real old fashioned Date. He said he likes going with a big group and that is always fun, but I think it might be okay!!!
We might go camping in Boone this weekend. I haven’t been to the mountains in NC yet and its going to be 3-4 more people and it could be a good way to explore the area, since these people have connections. I think camping with a big group is not what i usually like to do , but if someone else is planning it, I am definitely up for the ride.
I think KD and I have definitely hit upon a great idea for our blogs. Here’s to many more Simulposts!!!!!
Top 10 favorite things about summer
KD and Girliegirl Simulpost
1) Coronas with Lime and BBQ. They are good in the winter too, but summer makes them special! Margaritas on the rocks are pretty close too
2) 4th of July BBQs with fireworks, or general BBQs. Watching fireworks in sugarhouse park and going to a party afterwards. Also Pioneer Day fireworks in Tremonton Utah.
3) Hanging around at play grounds. Brings back childhood memories. Especially fun to hang out late evening/night times. Always leads to good discussion and some “major” event
4) Cucumber Sandwiches. I know this is an odd one, but my mom would make these sandwiches with white bread , butter , cucumber, salt and pepper and they were nice and cool in teh summer
5) Riding in the car with KD , with her radio blaring anything from Rock, pop to oldies. Especially when she had Michelle’s tracker.
6)White Tank tops. With jeans, skirts, etc. Its the ultimate summer shirt, makes me feel very alive
7) Hiking to these waterfalls in the canyons, we used to do it atleast once every summer,and then we would make yummy tin foil dinners after the hike…..yummm… and I guess it could also be hiking in general
8) Being out in a boat on a lake. I am specifically recalling last summer, when we went to the lake with some of J’s old roommates and just water skiied, tubed and wakeboarded. Also, other watersports aka…river rafting. J and I went with his last lab the last two years and it was really fun.
9) Going to Amusement Parks. Especially ones with a water park too. Fake Rafting in chlorinated water is the best. Also scary rides!
10) Road Trips and Family Vacays.
Top 10 personal issues
Weekend was mostly uneventful. Blah….I am getting too old for drama….I am going to steal KD’s idea from her site and do a top 10 issues of my life. For those who know us will see the similarites in the list and know why exactly we are friends
1) Time Management. When I am busy , I get everything done, when I am not busy, i procratinate like its a sport
2) Needy friends, boyfriends, parents, co-workers, people in general. I cannot be as involved in other people’s love/personal lives like I used to be. I only share my drama with 3 people max and expect other people to do the same and hopefully not have me as one of them.
3)Avoiding Conflict/Confrontation. I need to just tell people to leave me alone when I don’t want to do something, instead of feeling overwhelmed and guilty when i don’t go along with a plan or feeling resentful when I do
4) Body Insecurities. I know everyone has them, so I just need to get over it
5) Being Flirty. Should flirt if I want to and I should give people the boot if I want to and not worry what anyone thinks about my social skills
6) Being “bossed” around. I know what I want and i know why i want it, if i don’t, its still my life. I am tired of people I ‘ve allowed in my life-friends, family and b.f all need to stop telling me what to do , when I haven’t for an opinion.
7) Being overly analytical. I am getting better at this though!
8) Being more creative in my fashion choices. I am pretty darn good, but i can be better
9) Going to the gym. Must be more committed
10) Eating better and taking care of my health. i really don’t do this at all, because I am lazy and eat junk food and I avoid check ups, cuz I am deathly afraid of doctors. If i die at 30 no one will be surprised
Whew….that feels really good!!! Okay so maybe KD’s and mine are not that similar but its still obvious why we are friends…atleast to me anyway(insert cute “awwww” here )
Maybe this top 10 thing can be a weekly thing. Will ask her about it.
On ANTM…..
Since they let Brittany go, I am starting to lose interest in this show real fast. I will watch the season finale this week! But my interest for next season is already waning and a lot of people i have talked to have said the same.
You better shape up your show miss tyra or you will be losing a lot of your viewers!
I think they kept Keenyah, so that there is no “real ” competition in the last episode, we all know, that because of her weight she won’t be the top 2. I don’t even really care anymore whether Naima or Kahlen wins, cuz I’m just disillusioned with the show.
I saw Eva’s pic on the cover of a magazine called Kings , which is a second tier FHM/Maxim and the next top model should atleast get a Maxim cover if she is going to explore those options. I wonder if Eva even got any runway offers, since she is so short. That will be true of Kahlen and Naima as well.
Please Tyra, make this a real competition again!
Survival of the nicest?
Last night we watched Hotel Rwanda. It was very moving and shaming at the same time. In fact at one point the main character even says “We must shame them into helping us”. We = Rwandans, and them= the west, UN, etc.
But the beauty of stories like Hotel Rwanda and Schindlers list is the fact , that inspite of horrors of war and mayhem, they are life affirming stories.
I like to believe that if these are the stories we continue to tell and remember and these are the stories are kids hear more than stories of glorified violence, hatred etc, we will be creating a kinder, gentler society. We will pass on the messages of peace and kindness as a desirable trait. This makes me incredibly optimistic , that even if it takes another century or even longer, we are on the way to swinging the pendulum in favor of peace.
