Food and Drinks, Life

Aint Nobody does it better than J(s)

I am in love. The 2skinnee J’s were everything I ever hoped they would be and more. Lincoln Theatre turned out to be a super cool venue , and the audience was awesome. We managed to get pretty close to the stage and even got the one of the band members to sign a dvd for Scottie. Fave moments from the show

When they came out to “Better than J”
Stockholm love
Riotnrrrd
When Special J splashed water and I got some on me
Their white jump suit type outfits with big frilly hearts
J Guevara’s hotness and Special J’s cuteness.

Yeah, I’m lame. I know!

I am still so giddy from the show , that its hard for me to pin down the thoughts and feelings and write them down. It was really fun to jump and thrash around to good or as J says “fresh” beats and witty lyrics. The crowd was rowdy but without ill will and everyone on the floor wanted to jump around and dance and have a good time. The Skinnee J’s delivered one of the best concerts I have ever seen. The only cons was the fact that I wore sandals and a strapless bra, both are unwise choices in the pit.

After, we went to cookout and I gorged a cookout style hamburger which is a 1/8 pound patty with coleslaw , cheese, chilli, onion and cheese fries. The burger sounds weird, but its actually really good.

Life

Going…..

One more month till I go to Africa!!!! Still doesn’t feel real.

Tonight, I’m going to a 2 Skinnee J’s Concert in Raleigh. They are a geek rap band that J’s been into forever, and I just barely started getting into them. They sample a lot of weird stuff and have very witty lyrics. I think it will be a very good , high energy show.

It doesn’t look like J will be able to go to India in december because of financial reasons. Nothing new about that, saw it coming, but I’m still kinda disappointed.

Going to one of J’s friends wedding this saturday. I didn’t capitalize wedding, so that should say something. Also going to see J in a tie.

Love

Top 10 Crushes

In no particular order……

Vikram: So technically this wasn’t my first crush, but this was definitely the first one where, I was aware of feeling shy and tongue tied and blushing and all those familiar crush symptoms. Vikram was my cousin Bobby’s bandmate and he was probably 19 and I was 7,when I first saw him. They used to play in this cover band and I think the first night I saw him, they were going to some 70’s party, and were dressed in polyester suit. He was wearing a 70’s style white suit with a red shirt and had the requisite long hair in a pony tail. Now, it seems like a super sleazy look, but I thought that was so dashing at 8. I hung around them that night and I couldn’t stop staring at him. I don’t think he caught on that I had a little crush on him, cuz him and all of Bobby’s friends treated me like a cute li’l sister type who they could tease.

Jay: The only younger boy in my life. He was suave, charming, hot, sweet, patient, and way too smooth for his own good. This boy offered to make me pancakes in the middle of the afternoon on a bad day and he did and this boy was only 16. And I just fell for him. Damn good kisser too.

Johnny Depp : Just look at the pic and drool. All I can say is, I would leave J and anyone else in a heartbeat just to be near him. Yeah, Yeah, I ‘m a dork.

David Jensen : He was Eric’s roommate, Smart, hot , spiritual badass and an awesome writer. We would talk for hours about random, weird disturbing things, even after our significant others had gone to bed. I remember knowing that David would end up on a path, that I could never travel with him( as friends , I mean) and all I wanted was occasional glimpses into his life and his utterly fascinating mind. But , the boy chose to disappear and it’s probably for the better, because I don’t know if I can handle it if he truly has destroyed himself.

RS : Scruffy Bad Asssssssss………thats all I have to say.

Salman Khan: Alright, laugh it up chuckle heads, but I used to write fanfic about this bollywood actor. Height of crushdom, between the ages of 12-16.

Robert Plant : Tight Jeans, Long hair, Godfather of Rock Stars. Elvis was a pretty boy rockstar, RP spawned, grunge, androgyny, emo and everything sexy about Alt rock.

J: We didn’t start dating for 3 years until we met. The sexual tension, when we were in a room, used to be unbearable. That kinda buildup is rare. Also, back in those days, he would put his arm around him, while my b.f was 2 steps behind and whisper dirty/romantic/philosophical lyrics in my ears. Such a cocky bad ass. He just knew, that even though I had a b.f , I secretly wanted to be with him. But he had to wait a pretty long time too, so it all worked out.

Justin Wood: Hippie Boy. He was way too cool for me in H.S. Would not even talk to me outside AP History, but after we graduated, it was suddenly okay for us to hang out. He was the first person to introduce me to illegal substances.

Paul Story: Hated his personality, a total cocky, misogynist , SOB. But he was so freaking good looking that I could barely contain my lust. And we shared an office which was torture. Nothing ever came of it, but it was a crazy crush.

Life

Weekend

Wow! What an amazingly relaxing weekend. I napped, shopped and sat on my ass. Good Times. NG tried to pity me for staying home all weekend and I let her, but I enjoyed every minute of my unstructured time. Didn’t even really drink this weekend, which was refreshing in itself.

New Acquisitions

Outdoor Pants from Dicks
Mesh quick dry tank top
Vanilla Nutmeg Candle
Red Halter Dress
White Flip flops
Black Chinese Laundry peekaboo sandals

Life

Transient.

The VW Marketing Execs are geniuses. I love the “Independence Day” commercials for the new Jetta. I tried to post the vid clip, but it was in a flash player, and i’m simply not advanced enough to figure out how to cut and paste that. Anyway, the commercial has a young 20 something couple in their rented apt, and their neighbors annoyed at their loud music and then you see them play the same loud music, but its in their new starter music. I think they really found their niche audience, people who are my age, or in a similar life situation. I am too young to stop listening to death metal or broody alt rock, but old enough to start contemplating home ownership. This is a theme that spills into other areas of my life as well, how much to party? when to stop? Questions, though not existential, I grapple with everyday, as I come home with my 20something salary to an undergrad apt. I feel trapped between two worlds and I can slowly find myself drift into the world closer to my parents and cousins.

The commercial is bittersweet and just plain fun at the same time. i love the rock and roll attitude, but understand being overwhelmed with adulthood. I know VW is probably hoping to cash in on exactly these feelings, and I do resent them for exploiting me, but being in marketing myself, I do realize the genius. Irregardless, if I wasn’t a subaru fanatic, my next car would have definitely been a Jetta.

Life, Love

Gone

J and I have been working on our apt. Yup, 8 months after we’ve moved in, we have decided to finally furnish the place. Maybe if we can commit to furniture, we can move forward in our relationship. At least thats what I tell myself. Working on apt, might as well translate to working on relationship, because why would we spend time, labor and money on something, that we can’t imagine will be worth it.

The only major piece of furniture we don’t have is a Futon. Hopefully we can get one this month, and then we can focus on smaller projects, like stuff for our walls.

Er is getting married, tomorrow. I say , I don’t care, but I actually do. Is this the ultimate confirmation that he was right and I was wrong? After all he was able to find “true love” before me, he found someone who would put up with his issues for the rest of his life. I have no doubt J is more interesting, cool, better looking that Er’s  significant other, but in the long run, he got the better deal.

Here’s wishing them a happy married life.

Wonder if he is thinking about me tonight, wondering…..I am wondering….about him.

Correction, he is getting married, the 16th, not as previously stated.

Food and Drinks

Top 10 diet friendly but still yummy foods…..

as in , I actually crave them……….

Veggie Subs: Love the veggie delight from Subway. Have been trying to be good lately, by adding more mustard and less ranch. But I think its still pretty healthy and tasty. I put, spinach, carrots, pickles, cucumbers, tomatoes, jalapenos, banana peppers, salt and pepper, dijon mustard, lite mayo and lite ranch.
Turkey Wraps: From Jason’s Deli, or the ones I make at home. I also like it with chicken and hot sauce
V8: Low sodium version, with lime, worcestshire and hot sauce. Also gives you a serving of veggies for every 8oz. Thats my kinda drink.
Baked Salmon: I make it with olive oil and red pepper , oregano and vinegar and lime. All healthy Omega-3 fats and yummy.
Egg McMuffin: I know this sounds odd, but I read somewhere that if you order the McMuffin, with ham, its not so bad for you, and you get fiber, proteing, low-carb in a portion friendly way. I still don’t think they recommend eating this everyday, but its still diet friendly.
Mangoes: Fruity goodness.
Coffee: Dieters dream beverage, it makes you feel full for hours and you can add a little flavored cream for a lot of flavor.
Southwestern Coleslaw: Its my version of coleslaw with olive oil and spices and lime. Very tasty and not goopy
Chicken Noodle Soup: So warm, comforting and nourishing, with only 70 calories a serving , so even if you have two servings for a big meal, its a good diet entree.
Pork Chowmein: Not sure if its healthy, but seems like it compared to other chinese foods. Stir fried cabbage, veggies and light spices. I think its healthier if one were to make it at home, but its hard to shred that much cabbage.

Special Mention: Water. Couldn’t do without it.

Life

Anonymity

Is being mediocre and anonymous horrible?

I used to want to be a rockstar. Deep down, I still fantasize about it. The day I could tell that my rock star aspirations were a fantasy and not something that was going to happen in this lifetime, it wasn’t soul crushing. I think I’d matured enough to understand the subtler pleasures of anonymity. But am I just settling….shouldn’t I be more upset, that i’m not going to be famous or important? If I were to die tomorrow, other than the people who love and care about me and make up my universe, no one else will miss my existence. I guess there is regret, that i’m not going to change the world through a grand spectacle or scheme, but I refuse to be defined by the things I didn’t do, or couldn’t do and focus on my minor triumps. Does this make me small?

I watched War of the Worlds today, and Spielberg was really good at capturing the shots of people running around in panic, and his use of aerial shots, and blurred images of human bodies, did make it seem like microbes or rats running around. He was capturing us through the eyes of the aliens and we did look insignificant.

Maybe I’m too complacent, too happy to be mediocre, but I am not unhappy. I am happy to be here, I am happy to have a story, even if its been told a countless times before and 1000’s of people are experiencing the same thing right now. I like being a part of the collective.

Love

Night

There is an odd truce in my house now. Weary. J and I skulk around, smiling and talking, but not really saying anything to each other. It rained hard here last night, courtesy of Tropical Storm Cindi. We lay in bed, in the dark listening to the raindrops, but the storm stopped before we fell asleep and the silence was almost as deafening. I might have said something about it, when J piped up ” Do you want me to make soothing ocean noises?” Thats pretty funny and curuiosity got the best of me and I said “Sure”

He started going “Whoooooooosh” “anh ,anh” and then “Kaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa” really loud trying to imitate the gulls and that was the funniest thing ,I have heard/experienced lately. Layla got super freaked out and he kept doing that till I begged him to stop.

After that we couldn’t fall asleep ,cuz one of us would say “ocean” and we’d start cracking up like crazy. I don’t know if this means we are lunatics, or we miss laughing together.

He did hog the covers all night and I was super cold. He did call me, to make sure I’d made it to NG’s in the middle of the storm.

I guess these are the sum of parts.