Life

Right about now

God, it is so hard to focus on school this semester. There’s just something about the summer that makes me want to slack of really bad, which is exactly what I have been doing the past few days. However,I was overwhelmed by feelings of motivation this morning,( I think it was brought on by caffeine) so I am going to focus this week and do really well!

Things are going swell with me and J momentarily, but these things are transient. Lately I have been having lots of dreams about being a mom, something i cannot handle right now.

Summer is in full swing in NC, its humig, muggy and hot, but I’m getting used to it. Driving home after class and seeing the magnolia trees in bloom, made me smile. Something that would not have happened last year. I am so afraid that just as I finally feel like I’m getting settled, it might be time to move.

p.s the job is being a pain in the ass, must start looking for better employment, before situatins become dire.

Life

Immigration

I’m not sure where I stand on this Immigration debate thats raging through the country. But I do know,that I’m happy there is a debate. Its nice to see our political process in motion. I had been very disheartened for a while, but there’s still hope.

Everything else stays the same.

Life

Weekend regrets

I had a chocolate Croissant this morning for breakfast…not a teeny tiny one, a freaking gigantic huge one…………bleeeech

Its raining hard and my jeans are wet

I found the perfect outfit this weekend for under$20.00.I can definitely get it but i was paralyzed by fear. Have been regretting it ever since

procrastinated on studying for management and did rather poorly on the test this morning.

Did not find cute black steve madden wedges anywhere. There is no justice in this world

Feeling generally unmotivated and blah,

but i guess all this did help me update my blog.

Life

Against my self.

The test I was beating myself about, the one I thought, I’d misread the question and failed, turns out, I got a 100%. Which actually sucks, cuz I gotta take the boy out to dinner, cuz he made me bet against myself.

My friend JJ also pulled this trick on me right before the AP test results came out in high school :). I can’t remember what the bet was though.

Anyway, I guess its a good thing.

Life

And so it goes

Its been one month and 6 days since I have last posted. Grr..time flies. I can’t believe, one more month and the semester will be over. Things continue to go well on the school front. Planning out my summer school is stressing me out a little, because if I can’t get all the classes I want, I won’t be able to graduate Dec 07, which is the goal grad date now.

In life, nothing is really up, because it revolves around school, work, and homework. J and I are pretty steady these days, I think it has to do with both of us being super busy ,so even if we are cranky around each other, we stop because emotional upheavals require more effort than they are worth.

Lately,I have been missing my friends a lot. It was KD’s b’day recently and I’m a little sad, i didn’t get to celebrate her quarterlife milestone with her, but I’m sure we’ll make up for it the next time we get together.

Also, it seems more and more unlikely that I’ll make it to JJ’s wedding and taht depresses me so much. We have been discussing weddings and marriages for as long as I can remember and could not imagine not being at her wedding then.

Also being so busy makes it harder to keep in touch with friends over IM and phone simply cuz I don’t have the time….grrr….a year and a half, hopefully i’ll make it and my freinds will be patient enough and wait till I can breathe freely again.

Making a solemn vow to update more often, but I have a feeling that vow might be broken.

Life

Hair today

Oh God, its been so long since I’ve updated. Between school and work, I have zero time left for boyfriend, self or anything else, let alone my blog. I am enjoying work, its nice to get paid for non taxing(intellectually) work,but also get a bit of a work out(physically) while its busy. I like it busy anyway, cuz time goes by so quickly and I feel like I get skinnier. Because of how busy I’ve been my calorie intake has been about700 cals a day. Although, I realize this is going to help me get skinny fast, i need to not be this drastic.

When I get stressed out, I take it out on myself the most, and I need to not do that. If i want to get ready for the type of job, I really want in the future, I need to learn to handle stress now.

Everything else is going fine,meaning nothing new or exciting has happened in a long time. However:
a) i am getting back a decent tax refund, so i can pay down some of my credit cards
b) I am getting a haircut tomorrow and my hair decided to look decent today , so now i’m back to being torn about getting it cut short. It had seriously looked heinous, everyday but today! Stupid hair…..grrrr….Anyway, I was thinking of getting a short bob, something nicole richieish. Hope it will look good

Life

Ha

1. IF YOU COULD BUILD A SECOND HOUSE ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD IT BE?
Bahamas and the mountains

2. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE ARTICLES OF CLOTHING?
vintage cotton tee shirts

3. THE LAST CD YOU BOUGHT?
Don’t buy cd’s anymore, dowloaded a Eliott Smith CD recently though

4. WHAT TIME DO YOU WAKE UP IN THE MORNING?
This week 7ish am,

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE KITCHEN APPLIANCE?
Blender

6. IF YOU COULD PLAY AN INSTRUMENT, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Guitar

7. FAVORITE COLOR?
Yellow!

8. WHICH VEHICLE DO YOU PREFER, SPORTS CAR, MOTORCYCLE, or SUV?
if out of those 3 then motorcycle, but i actually prefer a hybrid

9. DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE AFTERLIFE?
don’t know, don’t care

10. FAVORITE CHILDREN’S BOOK?
Anything by Enid Blyton and Nancy Drew

11. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SEASON?
Summer

12. IF YOU HAVE A TATTOO, WHAT IS IT?
don’t have one

13. IF YOU COULD HAVE ONE SUPERPOWER, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
being skinny no matter what i eat

14. CAN YOU JUGGLE?
no

15. ONE PERSON/PEOPLE FROM YOUR PAST YOU WISH YOU COULD GO BACK AND TALK TO.
An ex and a friend

16. WHAT IS UNDER YOUR BED.
whatever little treasure layla dragged in there

17. WHAT’S YOUR FAVORITE DAY?
Friday

18. WHICH DO YOU PREFER, SUSHI OR HAMBURGER?
Both, depends on the day.

19. FROM THE PEOPLE YOU WILL POST THIS TO, WHO’S THE MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND FIRST?
eh

20. WHO’S THE LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND?
eh

21. WHO DID YOU RECEIVE THIS FROM? OR TAKEN FROM THEIR LJ?
some chick who is going out with one of my friends

22. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE FLOWER?
Birds of Paradise and daisies

23. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE MEAL?
Good Bread, medium rare steak and frappucinno

24. WHEN IS YOUR BIRTHDAY?
Aug 5

25. DESCRIBE YOUR PJ’s.
lemon yellow pants and a turquoise cami

26. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE BREAKFAST?
omlettes, smoked salmon and good cheese and fresh oj

27. DO YOU LIKE YOUR JOB?
eh

28. WHAT IS YOUR DREAM JOB?
VP of Marketing

29. WHAT AGE DO YOU PLAN TO RETIRE?
65

30. WHERE DID YOU MEET YOUR SPOUSE OR SIGNIFICANT OTHER?
College

BONUS: SOMETHING YOU’D LIKE TO DO THAT YOU’VE NEVER DONE BEFORE?
Snowboard

Family, Life

sickly weakling…..

Blah…I am sick.

Actually I’m kinda glad. I was feeling semi sick all last week, and was being really whiny about. Its always nice to get some sort of feedback that, indeed I am not crazy.Yaaaaaaay!!!!

Also now J feels bad that he rolled his eyes at me last week, when I told him I was coming down with something. I am really not a hypochondriac, so it pissed me off and as usual I am glad to have been proven right.

This afternoon, in a moment of weakness, I spilled the beans to my mother about how J and I have vague plans to marry…sometime in the future. This was a wrong move. Although she said she understood why we were going so slow, the whole conversation was sprinkled with

“you really should just get married now”, “your grandparents are getting old”, “2006 is a lucky year”

…And if I know my mother, it will only get worse. Gah!!! Bad Girliegirl…

Life, Uncategorized

New Dogs and Old Friends

I got the highest score on my marketing test in both the sections. Hey its nice to know I’m at least smarter than 65 random girls. As NG says- Go positive reinforcement.

Last night J and I took layla on a walk to the elementary school by our house and ran across a stray lost puppy. She was really friendly and very happy to see us. She and Layla had a lot of fun playing together. Anyway, it was getting cold and we brought her home for the night and then had to take her to the shelter this morning. I felt really bad, there’s just this awful feeling of how wrong it is to drive a dog to a shelter, instead of bringing it home.

I know its not a big deal, but it really felt like it was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done, because I know what happens to the dogs that don’t get adopted. But I do recognize that if Layla got lost, I would want someone to do the exact same thing, take her to the shelter, cuz she would be well cared for and it would be easy fior me to find her. Although, given how spoilt and obnoxious layla is, I doubt her chances of getting adopted would be very high.

Having a nice, mellow puppy around also made us painfully aware, how obnoxious laylz can be sometimes. I don’t think she knew if she was trying to get more attention from the dog, or us, but she knew that *everyone* had to give her attention. Is this a common trait of an only child? Am I like this ? I guess sometimes, but I feel most people are like this sometimes. And also, I plan on reproducing only once, so there’s a higer than 50% chance that I won’t have twins and I’ll raise an only child as well. And if J is the dad , then the kid is in trouble, cuz we have thoroughly spoilt Layla into manipulative, needy brat.

In other news, I feel kinda guilty for not being around NG, not that she is very needy anymore, and seems to have a seperate group of friends from me, but i guess i do like her and miss her, so i’ll try to make a bigger effort to hang out with her soon.

Life

Surveyed

the scar you’re most proud of don’t have too many physical scars
your favourite condiment hot sauce and mayo
if you have freckles one on my nose
your preferred method of cooking impromptu
what shoes you’re wearing standard black wedges
how many children you have none
the first person you french kissed Nate
your preferred breed of dog mutts
where you were born Calcutta India
what colour underwear you’re wearing pink
where your keys are right now oh shit…i think by the door
if you have split ends not lately
when you last got laid last night
your opinion on airline food its not that bad
what cosmetic surgery you would consider liposuction
best kiddie playground equipment to have sex on slide, or a teeter totter would be kinda kinky
your worst malady depression
if your mum loves your dad yes, definitely
if you can sing well not really, but drunk karaoke is fun
what your olympic event would be luge
someone you admire Every minority woman in a positon of power
which country would be hardest for you to locate on a map Niger
the last time you cried monday
your most interesting sexual congress location gas station bathroom
part of the Sunday papers you read first Arts
the languages you speak hindi, bengali, punjabi, english
the religion you were raised in a mix of all
if you can draw well can’t draw worth s*****
your favourite photograph is a out of focus shot of J, layla and I lying around in bed
what you should be doing instead of this my assignment for my marketing class
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